Journal of Other Forum Analysis (Volume II, Issue 1)

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Another fun day on Resetera

I'm dying alone.

I'm having to accept that there is no one out there, period. No friends, and certainly not the idea of ANYTHING more. The idea of going out with someone is setting my standards too high, and this is before questioning if i even like someone's existence.

I've spent the last few years focusing on my business/career to keep a roof over my head, and I've tried dating on the side. Sadly I'm fucking ugly, so that kills a lot of options for me. The most I can get is being stood up for sushi.

It's defeating to know that, even at my best, no matter what, i'm worthless. My whole life is utterly meaningless. At this point, the idea of being stabbed and bleeding out is a much happier version of the rest of my life than whatever toxic optimism anyone can provide. The next time I have to hear anyone lie and tell anyone that "there's someone out there for you" or "you have so much to live for", that's an automatic punch to the face.

I'm just tired with nowhere else to turn with no solutions and coming to realize suicide is the only effective one

https://www.resetera.com/threads/dying-alone.1132800/

I hate fucking 40 year old emo kids.