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(6 hours ago)Hap Shaughnessy wrote: https://www.resetera.com/threads/i-think-i-am-not-happy-in-my-relationship-anymore-but-the-reason-makes-no-sense.987432/
SpazEagle wrote:Hello Era, you guys have been immensely helpful to me in my previous threads, and I think most of you are more mature than me. That's why I need help.
I am going to do my best to summarize all my feelings and that's why I am taking my time to write these words. It took three days to write this down.
I've broke up with my toxic ex-GF more than a year ago. The first 3 months were difficult but after those months, I feel like I am free and reclaiming my independence felt extremely good.
After some time, I felt like I was ready for a relationship but this time I was more experienced, and I promised myself I won't make the same mistakes, and I'll find someone who really cares about me.
From time to time, I felt lonely, and I started to search for someone to date.
It felt like I could date anyone I wanted. Models could get in line to date me. Of course, I know who is out of my league, but you get the idea.
2 months ago, I've met with someone, and we start seeing each other. It was like flirting. We go out and spend some time together. We had so much fun when we were together. We always had moments like "Oh wow. 4 hours have passed?". It was so fun, and I was happy. And after a month we start dating and now we are officially a "couple"
We've been dating for a month, and she is really into me. That's why what I do for her doesn't feel like a responsibility, I become happy just for making her happy.
Now you probably said "Dude, what's your problem then?"
All right. It will sound funny, but I'll do my best to explain it. When I was a teenager, I watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer and I had a crush on Buffy (we all had, right?). I don't know why but my attraction was into blondes after that. When we were debating about Elena or Chloe (from Uncharted) with my friends back then and I was always #TeamElena. So, in real life, I always wanted to date with a blonde girl.
I always wanted my ex to dye her hair to blonde. I was always like "Wow. She looks gorgeous." when I see a natural blonde in a movie or TV show (Yes, I know they are extremely rare)
Well, my current girlfriend is a natural blonde and has blue eyes, but she is not like Scadinavian women blonde. More like darker blonde but it's obvious she is a blonde. You know what I mean, right?
Anyway, I really like spending time with her but since we start dating, my mind had a factory reset and my attraction went into brunettes. It might sound funny, but I stopped watching movies or TV shows because I'd be jealous if I see a couple with a brunette woman in it. And it's not just about her. I just can't find blonde celebrities attractive like I used to. I don't know what happened to me. It makes me really upset because I should be happy because everything is going well.
At the same time, I have two fears. The first one is, I feel like this because she is "too good" to me. I remember it didn't feel like it with my narcissist ex. Because it was up and down. But it wasn't natural. I was manipulated. But will it always happen? Will I get bored if a woman is "too nice" to me?
Second one is, I am not a relationship type of guy. What if you get bored when a relationship gets serious? I am afraid of this because I want to have a family with a wife and kids.
I tell myself that it's just a hair color. Not a big deal. But I find brunettes way more attractive now. I was watching a movie, and the woman has dark hair and thick eyebrows. She was gorgeous. She was more beautiful than any other blonde woman I've ever seen. But I wasn't always like this. Beautiful woman is beautiful woman. Doesn't matter if she is blonde or brunette. But it happened after I started this relationship.
Two days ago, me and my friend were talking and he said "Man, I think blonde hair is so 80s. Brunette women are way more attractive." I felt like I was going to cry.
And because of this I hate myself because I am in a great relationship. A relationship I always dreamt of.
Well to be honest, I am not Henry Cavill either. I know my league.But sometimes I feel trapped because of this. I don't want to break up with her just because of this. I know I'll lose a person who likes me for what I am. I was 100% honest with her about everything. She accepted my whole personality. And she will be really upset. But I want to overcome this problem of mine. Maybe, I'll just ask whether she can dye her hair dark.
I think I'll start therapy. I hate myself.
Welp, time to log into the riotous account since it's hidden.
Quote:It felt like I could date anyone I wanted. Models could get in line to date me. Of course, I know who is out of my league, but you get the idea.
Quote:Well to be honest, I am not Henry Cavill either. I know my league
