Random Talk

[MMaRsu]

She said sorry I am responding so late, i've been a bit distant lately

I sent some dumb shit back like "hey no worries that doesnt really matter at all, is something on your mind or is it just your crappy matrass (she mentioned her bed was fucked up). 

Instead of just saying "lol thats what happens when you smoke weed everyday" (she's a huge stoner)

Now I'm not even getting a msg back at all SMH I am such an idiot but I guess its obvious she wasnt interested in the first place (ofcourse she's already taken anyway). 

I wish I could just shut my feelings off. Right now Im like bummed out that she's not sending anything anymore. :( But I already knew ahead of time it was an uphill battle. At least if I had sent something funny instead of some stupid shit like above I might have had a chance (????)

Stuck at work and it's so boring because there's nothing happening. So im stuck with my thoughts. 

Yesterday I did received my new weights, jumprope, ankel weights, creatine. Went for a hour long fast walk, getting groceries and walking back with a full backpack.
Used my weights and the jumprope.

Also bought a bunch of healthy food like chicken & rice. Lets get this weight loss shit going.